The Soloist Lands in Paris
Nov 10, 2024
For the past few years, I’ve kept a list of places where I could envision living out my retirement. I kept up-to-date on the candidates. Every time I proposed an addition to or deletion from my list, my friends rolled their eyes.
Unexpected Exile
November 16, 2024
I am grateful for having the frustrating, attention-demanding process of applying for a French visa as a distraction from the news…
Serenity, or my search thereof
November 27, 2024
Snow is falling in slow motion silently outside the window of my temporary residence in Montparnasse. It’s a good day to be indoors — except for the fact that indoors is where all the bureaucratic and financial consequences of my decision to move to France have also taken up residence.
Dénouements
December 3, 2024
The genial bank employee nodded his head. I pressed ‘submit’ on my phone. Two days late, my first month’s rent shot off toward its intended target, my new and understanding landlords. What feels like a heroic three-week battle came to a triumphant conclusion. Not only did I pay my rent, I also let an unfamiliar feeling sink in: I am solvent in France.
Feeding myself in Paris
December 14, 2024
Billie lies on the floor next to her dog bed. Her snout is not pointed in my direction. Yet, I know every nerve sensor in her slightly wet nose is on red alert for the moment when I start cooking my dinner. Every afternoon, after she finishes her dinner, she grows impatient. She associates the end of her dinner with the start of mine…
Dispossession
December 21, 2024
I ran my fingers across a white dinner plate with a Royal Blue garland looping around the broad rim. Little braille-like bumps between the garland’s loops slowed my hand as I examined the design. It was one of a set of six plates sitting on a shelf in AXS Design, a shopwell worth seeking out.
Pre-existing What?
December 30, 2024
Private health insurance — where it all goes wrong. I return to New York.
Living in the Future
Jan 10, 2025
It might strike you as a bit rich of me to compare my current situation in Paris to that of the character Frances McDorman plays in Chloe Zhao’s film, “Nomadland, that is to say, “houseless.”
The Power of Attention
January 17, 2025
I owe the happy conduct of my life as a soloist partially to the internet. I first signed up for an electronic mail account in 1985, when I entered grad school at the University of Toronto. Not many civilians had access to email then.
The Premières of Edmond Dédé's Morgiane in New Orleans, Washington, D.C., and New York City. A personal perspective.
February 5, 2025
Edmond Dédé, composer, musician, and African American, starts to get his due.
Packing Up My Brief Life in Paris
February 14, 2025
If I could have closed the book on my failed attempt to emigrate to France without returning to Paris, I would have done so. Instead, here I am, boxing up the few clothes I left behind, adding to them the few I brought, and filling the now empty space in my suitcase with vinegars, tins of olive oil, a few antique stoneware bowls, and a de Buyer crepe pan.
Breaking Up Is Hard to Do.
February 28, 2025
You can’t claim to know a country you love until you break up with it or it breaks up with you.
Letting It Go
March 23, 2025
Every transition in life, like the one I’m in the middle of, comes at a price but also with gains. From Californian condo-owner to failed emigrée to middle class nomad and eventually (I hope) once again a home cook in my own kitchen, the way I see myself has undergone change after change after change over the past 6 months while who I am remains the same.
On the Road with a Small Dog
April 16, 2025
A few mornings ago, I was making Melissa Clark’s pozole-like soupy stew, a project meant to focus my mind on a Substack post about cooking while traveling. In the background, I heard Billie barking outside in the enclosed space behind my townhouse in Uptown New Orleans.
Elective Affinities
May 11, 2025
Pope Leo XIV’s family history reminds Americans of what makes New Orleans so special.
Celibacy and the Single (Elderly) Girl
June 1, 2025
(Liz, star of @gloriousbroads on Instagram)
It’s time I cleared something up.
Virginia Woolf and the Approach of War
June 16, 2025
I find echoes of our political climate in Virginia Woolf’s most intimate writing.
The Things That Matter
July 19, 2025
What do you do when you’ve given away almost everything you owned?
Baldwin and Reading for Love
November 4, 2025
I will give you two reasons to read Nicholas Boggs’s 746-page Baldwin: A Love Story, 620 pages of which constitute the main text. I’m not suggesting the obvious reason, that is, your love of James Baldwin’s writing.